The Peregrine Falcon

In the past year, I have talked to many people about novel writing, both professionals and friends.  There are two questions that are always asked.  The first is what inspires me.  I can't tell you how many times I have been asked my inspiration.  It is a difficult question to answer and inevitably follows the other common question, "What are you writing about?"

The conversation goes something like this.  Joe Curious asks, "So you're writing a novel.  That's awesome.  What are you writing about?"

I say, "It's urban fantasy."

He cocks his head and looks at me questioningly, "Urban fantasy, eh?" 

I can tell he isn't exactly sure what that is, and sometimes even I wonder.  There isn't an urban fantasy section at most bookstores.  Books in that genre haphazardly get shoved into horror, mystery, or romance.  For some inexplicable reason, I feel the need to explain the genre when anyone looks at me the way Joe Curious is looking at me now.   It is a mixture of confusion and skepticism. 

I take a deep breath and say, "Urban fantasy books take place in modern day but with mythical or fantastical elements."  Really that is the easiest way I can explain the genre to a non-reader without confusing them more than they already are.

What do I really want to say when people ask what my book is about?  Fighting, fucking, and fireballs.  It's clean and concise, but I worry about offending people.  Most times Joe Curious is a former co-worker or acquaintance or former student.  After teaching high school AP English, people expect a certain kind of novel from you.  A former AP teacher shouldn't be writing fantasy, certainly not one that has paranormal and romantic elements.

No.

They should be writing the great American novel with all the heartbreak and misery that comes with the classics so many of us suffered through in our own high school English classes.

Don't get me wrong.  I love the classics.  I have my degree in English literature.  In high school, I read Ayn Rand's Anthem in Ms. Wallace's 9^th grade pre-IB English class and was hooked.  I tore through The Fountainhead and stumbled through Atlas Shrugged.  I discovered Faulkner, Hemingway, and Cather.  I moved on to British authors, devouring Dickens, Bronte (Emily, Charlotte, and Anne), and Joyce.  Camus' The Stranger changed my life.  I started reading all the existentialists, which led to the Russian authors.  And is there a Shakespeare play I haven't read?  No.  I've even read Troilus and Cressida.

But do I want to live in those worlds?  No.  And writing a novel means living in that world.  You can't put the book down in a few days and walk away.  You live in that world each day when you write.

I did a lot of theater in my twenties and always wanted to do a meaty drama.  It seemed I always got cast as the ingénue in comedic farces.  Finally, I had my opportunity.  I was cast in Dancing at Lughnasa.  For twelve weeks, I lived the life of Aggie.  I died every week.  I lived a pitifully sad existence.  Aggie crept into every part of my life.  I loved the show.  I relished the opportunity to play a character with such depth, but after it was over, I was done.  Give me farce any day!

It is the same with writing.  At least for me it is.  What I write creeps into my life.  I still read the classics and the modern fiction that will someday become the classics, but primarily I read fantasy, horror, and paranormal romance. I can't read normal, run of the mill novels or romances.  They bore me to tears. To quote Jennie Breeden of The Devil's Panties, "I like a little carnage with my smut." (http://thedevilspanties.com/archives/6161)

Back to Joe curious who nods at my explanation and offers, "Cool.  So, where did you get your inspiration?"

This is the far more difficult question.  The smallest, most insignificant things can provide the most inspiration.   I like drawing from the ordinary and imagining the fantastical.  I love the thought that magic surrounds us.

One day I was taking my son to school.  He is in kindergarten and he said, "What is the fastest animal in the world?"

I said, "The cheetah?"

"No, mom.  It's the peregrine falcon.  It can go like a billion miles an hour."

"Really, a billion?"

"Yep.  The Wild Kratts said so.  They know everything about animals."

"Peregrine falcons are really cool.  They are my favorite."

In that moment, a story element came to me that changed the course of my novel.  It was only an ordinary conversation with my son, but the spark was there all the same.  A kernel of light hidden in the usual morning banter.

I went home that day and wrote twenty pages.

Magic.

Inspiration comes every day in little ways.  You just have to pay attention.  Take the time to sit and watch.  Too often we rush through each day not stopping to appreciate the business of living.  When we do stop, we find magic.

Marking Time

 ‎"Yesterday, everybody smoked his last cigar, took his last drink and swore his last oath. Today, we are a pious and exemplary community. Thirty days from now, we shall have cast our reformation to the winds and gone to cutting our ancient shortcomings considerably shorter than ever." - Mark Twain

New Year's Eve is just another marker of time.  We like to mark time.  We like periods of rebirth.  It allows us a second chance.  A chance to forget our trespasses.  A chance to reinvent ourselves.  And whether New Year's is really just another day on the calendar or not, for many it is that chance at redemption. 

Personally, this coming year marks a huge passage of time.  I will turn forty in August.  I have begun reflecting on the past decade and asking the standard array of questions. Am I where I thought I would be?  Have I lived well?  Have I accomplished things I am proud of?

To answer those question I have to go to the start, my 30^th birthday.  I was finishing my English degree at the University of Houston and getting ready to start my teaching career.  A real grown up job.  You see, until this point, I was by and large, a big kid.  I floated from job to job with no clear idea of who or what I wanted to be.  I worked in a bookstore; I toured with Bill and Tek's Excellent Theater; I sporadically ran my own photography business; I mixed oils at an aromatherapy company; I filed medical records at a cardiologist's office; I was a receptionist at an architecture firm.  In essence, I lacked focus.  Do I regret squandering away my twenties?  Not one bit. 

I had a blast. 

I made mistakes.  I dated the wrong guys. I lived in crappy apartments and had chunks of plaster fall on me while I showered.  I formed lasting friendships with amazing people.  I learned never to drink a Car Bomb at the end of a night of drinking.  I met my future husband.  I stayed up all night gaming.  I drove twenty-four hours to LA to stay less than forty-eight hours and head back home again.  I danced until my feet hurt and laughed until my sides split. 

I wouldn't trade one minute. 

When I turned thirty, I was ready.  I was ready to start a new decade and put the confusing mess of my twenties behind me.  I was more self-assured.  I was confident.  I began teaching and found a love I never knew I had.  I got married.  I had my first child.  I traveled.  I went to Jamaica, Scotland, New York, Colorado, and Florida.  I had my second child.  I became a stay-at-home mom.  I started writing my novel.  I fostered traditions with friends and family that I will cherish forever.  I danced with my children until my feet hurt and laughed until my sides split.

So am I where I thought I would be?  Yes and no.

My thirty-year-old self would have said, "Yes.  Most definitely, yes!"  She would be exactly where I am today.

But my twenty-year-old self, I would have said, "No way!"  She would have been living in New York doing theater.

And if you went even farther back to my ten-year-old self?  She would have said, "I am going to be a writer and have a family.  One boy and one girl."  She knew better than I who I was to become.  If only I would have listened to her sooner, but then, I wouldn't be where I am today. 

Some years are better than others and 2011 was my best year yet, both personally and creatively.  There are many things I hope to accomplish this year.  I am not a big resolution maker, but I do set goals for myself.  Last year, I vowed to start my novel.  This year, I vow to finish my second draft and start the process of finding an agent.

In ten years, I will reflect on my forties and say, "That is the decade I became a published author and had my first best-seller."

I wish you all the best in 2012.  May your year be full of laughter and love and joy! 

-Kristi